If you belong to a 12 Step Group, at one time you will hear someone say, "Upon working the steps, one day you will see where the Steps are working you!" The same can be said when you meditate with Zen koans ... a koan can pop into your life when you least expect it, giving you a new perspective on matters. Here we are practicing with koans to see how they can deepen our understanding of the 12 Steps in new and unexpected ways.
Step 12: Having
had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this
message to [others], and practice these principles in all our affairs.
Just think about
asking yourself this question when you were at Step One.I for one would not have given myself much
worth back then. Low self esteem …low self worth…I did not measure up to
Then we work the 12
Steps… With each Step a building upon of ”estimable acts” as some say.Something miraculous happens along this
path.We are transformed into a
different person. I am not the same person that began my 12 Step journey 28
We think of worth as value.After working Step
12, have I become more valuable to others?More valuable to society?More
valuable to myself?How do I do this?
I'm an outdoor cat
By carrying the
message of the Steps to others… By practicing these principles in all my
The origin of the
word “worth” is interesting:
·Old English – weorthan
·Old High German – werdan … to become
·Latin – vertere
… to turn
For something to
become valuable, it has to be compared with something of less value.From our beginnings at Step One, compare that
with completing the 12 Steps; another way then, of describing this koan, might
be What have I become?
Ain't life grand?
What have I become
after having had a spiritual awakening?There are myriad examples in the Big Book:
·More and more we became interested in seeing
what we could contribute to life. P.63
·We come to rely upon it [inspiration]. P.87
·…spiritually fit, we can do all sorts of
things alcoholics are not supposed to do. P. 100
to this koan came in various ways.If
you do these Steps, it’s worth it!Setting a good example equals worth.A bookkeeper brought up the notion of assets and liabilities showing
net worth.When we give, we receive more (worth)… freely giving of our self,
gives us a sense of worth.